Hey it’s me, Abby P! What up, my P-PLE! Happy New Year! Ya’ll I have been in Korea for five years now Thank you if you’ve been with me since the beginning I can’t say 2019 was my best year but there were definitely some great highlights That I shared on my Instagram story, if you follow me on there Long story short though, in 2019 I went through… A lot of mentally dark times that fortunately, however Led me to a clearer 2020 vision See what I did there? So my biggest news is, based on my plans and if everything works out Yes, this might very well be my last year teaching with EPIK It’s weird to say because I honestly thought I could and would do this job forever I thought I had found my “calling” Like what I was meant to do Which was to be an English teacher in South Korea And overall I’m pretty set financially with this job Because I’m at the highest pay scale for an EPIK teacher since I’ve stayed on the same contract Like renewed the same contract every year For a number of years So now I’m at the highest pay scale We’ve got great vacations and holidays And through the years I’ve just become really really familiar and comfortable with everything So it might sound odd to some and maybe like “First world problems” But being “comfortable” was part of what led me into those dark times in 2019 Around maybe April of 2019 Depression started to take a hold of me again As it tends to do whenever it wants And it’s something I’ve lived with since high school And I couldn’t really pinpoint exactly what was making me feel depressed because I felt like it was just so many different things One of which was, being “comfortable” here in Korea meant still being away from home And missing out on a lot of things like Birthdays and Christmas time with family Weddings especially Weddings of my close friends and family At times I felt really guilty for not physically being there But also at the same time, it is my choice to be here in Korea, right? I could just go home after I finish my one year contract But I still choose to renew my contract every year And also because going back home to the U.S. Is this whole other chapter in my life that I’m not quite ready to start just yet On the one hand, I’ve worked really hard in coming over here Making a life here on my own, assimilating to the culture, being part of a community here But on the other hand The longer I’m away from home in the U.S. The more distance grows between me and my loved ones and friends I remember talking to my brother about something and He was just like “You know what? It’s just hard to talk about this or for you to understand, sis, because you haven’t been here” And that really hit me So, many times again, I felt like I was being selfish and only thinking about myself My whole life I’ve always chased after what I really wanted to do and what I was passionate about Which is great for personal growth and development and whatever But also at the same time it also makes me feel like I’m greedy or it makes me think like, “Am I a greedy person?” For, I guess, being too ambitious or like Wanting to do or achieve certain things for myself And another thing is, for all of my adult life really I’ve been unsure of what it is I really wanna do career-wise Even when I was lucky enough to be hired in a position I could never just be satisfied And that always frustrated me For one, (before teaching) I’ve worked for small companies and big companies for a number of years And I realized the corporate life is definitely not for me Being an English teacher here in South Korea I thought I had found what I really wanted to do or what I was really meant to do So that’s why I was really frustrated again this year as to why It was so hard to get up in the mornings to go to work I was just exhausted… like always exhausted Not so much physically but mentally and emotionally Why can’t I just be happy with what I have? Again, it made me feel like I was just being greedy I wanted more Like, is there more to this life? And with YouTube too, I wasn’t as “on my grind” as I was in 2018 I feel like 2018 was a really great year It was probably one of my best years I wanted to make more videos and put more time into my YouTube but I also couldn’t because I needed to put my actual full-time job as a teacher first And in situations like this, it really does not help that I am a perfectionist because I literally have checklists that I HAVE to complete Otherwise I will feel so anxious if those boxes aren’t ticked off But the problem is the things that I have to get done are constant And that list just piles up It piles up because I’m always like “I gotta get this done, I gotta get this done, there’s still this that I have to do… …But now there’s this other stuff that I have to do” Like I could never give myself a break Even while I was resting, I always felt like I had to be doing something There was always something to do And generally I am a pretty busy person So for a lot of 2019 I felt like like I was slowly but breathlessly Crawling to a finish line that I would never reach In 2019 I also found myself being a lot more irritable and easily angered over things More so than in previous years where I was a lot more positive, go-with-the-flow, happy go lucky And now I realize it has a lot to do with all of these feelings and thoughts that I’ve been struggling with And trying to organize and make sense of Now that I’m on my winter vacation, I’ve taken some much needed time to myself To reflect, re-energize, re-focus So now, looking ahead One of my biggest goals this year is to prepare for my new adventure in 2021 next year I am planning on being a freelancer, I guess you can call it Again that is very weird to say because I’m still in the very early stages of this planning But it is thanks to being an English teacher and to doing YouTube all of these years I feel like I can put more credibility into this decision I’ve actually been going back and forth on this the entire year last year And maybe even starting in 2018 Because it is a very risky thing to do to give up this “comfortable” life of mine For something that’s not as financially secure In 2021, I want to be able to focus more on my YouTube and the opportunities that arise from it I’ve been lucky enough to receive some exciting collaboration opportunities from different companies Big and small And other creators here in Korea But because of my current position as an English teacher here My location, my time, my visa I couldn’t take up those offers So that’s why I decided I should make this my last year of teaching with EPIK (English Program in Korea) I also realized though that through teaching English at a school and through teaching through YouTube Like giving you tips on Korean and languages and other things I do like teaching and I feel like I have experience with it I’m- I’m alright with it, you know… So, many of you have asked me on my YouTube and social media If I can personally teach you English or Korean or whatever other languages On my Facebook I even brought up the idea of me doing online private lessons And that was welcomed with a good response So as another part of my freelancing To help me get more income to… Survive (lol) I’m so excited to tell you that I am actually planning on doing those private one-on-one lessons starting 2021 I’m thinking it’ll be English and Korean for sure But also later I can add in Japanese and other languages too After I do some brushing up myself Anyway I’m still working it all out but I am planning to officially launch this in 2021 So if you really are interested in learning or practicing your English or Korean Then stay subscribed and follow me on my social media for more updates on that later So my biggest goal this year is to prepare for all of that Which means saving a lot of money this year Figuring out if I’m gonna move to Seoul next year So that I can partake in more media opportunities while I am here in Korea And also prepping visa stuff because I will have to change from my current E-2 visa to an F visa Probably umm I believe it’s the F-2-7 visa or the F-2-99 visa I’m still doing research on which option would be the best for me If you’re watching this and you do have knowledge on these visas Then please feel free to comment your insight and thoughts on which visa option would be the best Again this freelancing thing is going to be a huge risk, so that’s why I need this entire year to prep for it Prepare myself mentally And I really need time to plan and prepare everything Because I am a true INFJ And I need to plan everything, man And I think it’s important that I say it all in this video and share it with you all because It will push me to be in this mindset for this whole year Like I said, I’ve been very back and forth on this decision for a long time But, it is better to try and fail than to never try and just keep on wondering and regretting later I told my mom, my sister, Hoon, and a couple of my friends and they’ve been Surprisingly very supportive and encouraging so That also gave me another push to just go for it As far as my other goals for the new year, they’re pretty chill Continue to study languages, or actually Study more this year in terms of languages because I As you know, I couldn’t… I didn’t really study languages last year And also I wanna watch more anime this year because I couldn’t watch much last year either So if you’ve got some anime recommendations, please feel free to comment that down below Let’s share our favorite animes with each other I will also still be streaming games on my Twitch here and there throughout the year So if you’re into games or just wanna chat, come and hang out (twitch.tv/abbyp) And by the time this video is uploaded, I will already be home visiting in the U.S. I will be having my San Diego, California meet-and-greet soon Then I’ll be flying over to the Philippines traveling to Cebu and Manila And then finishing off my trip with a Manila meet-up I’m so excited to go back to the motherland again after Four years since my last trip So definitely lots to look forward to and to work on this year And there are a couple other things too that I would like to keep a secret for now and surprise you later with A couple shout-outs I wanna make for my fellow content creators who help me with my content One of them is my friend, JP, aka Jollibeats Who provides me with the dopest music for my videos So, thank you, JP And also to my Korean and Arab translators Thank you, Seokchan and Ali Ali makes YouTube contents on Korean and Asian entertainment And Seokchan also produces some dope music So check ’em out Their information is always gonna be in my description box If you would also like to translate my videos in your language be it Japanese, German, or whatever You’re always welcome, and then just email me your information so I can credit you Thank you so much again for all of your love and support on my content Especially to those who have been with me all five years of this crazy journey Here’s to Many more years together, my P-PLE Sending you all of my love for 2020 Now go out there and make this year yours Bye!